Just getting into the elder class and becoming comfy with my infirmities. My mother who died at age 95, used to say quite often “old age isn’t for sissies, ya gotta be strong to put up with it!” She was right!
So sorry for your loss Ashley. It is a hard row to hoe but you will get better. You must believe that. The hard part will be the loneliness, no one to banter with at a moments notice, please do not blame yourself for his death, you did everything you could, had the emt’s showed up earlier he would have died in their care. It is what it is, tragic, sad and frustrating but let it be and focus on yourself. Our prayers are with you!
Don’t let them bother you, if someone is really concerned and asks what is happening with you, by all means it’s your turn to educate, the only exception I would make is if their attitude being conveyed to children, I think I would speak up and make sure the real story is given to children. Adults are mostly a lost cause, content with their ignorance, a child’s mind is open to education